This is ME. This is what I AM..

I've been hiding in the "closet" for like 3 years i think.. it is really hard.. REALLY HARD.. theres a lot of things that i cant do or cant say. its like im a prisoner of my own self. i really cant accept the fact that i am gay. i was homophobic before.. i really cant stand whenever people around me talk about the gender issues. it really bugs me. and i tend to divert my attention unto something else.

Just last year.. i started coming "OUT" to my older sister that i am like this.. she accepted me and shes the first one to know within my family.. then to some of my close friends at school. it was really unexpected coz we were playing a game.. the game made me confess. at first i thought theyre not goin to accept me for who am i. twas really nice of them to say that theyre proud of me that i confessed.

Then i broke up with my bf.. (been havin secret relationships before with guys. gawd twas really hard..) one of the reason why i outed myself.. dont want to tell the whole story what he did.. then i met TIM.. he is the reason why i accepted myself for bein like this.. i mean, yeah i am different from the others.. unlike my cousins who are straight.. i am really different. tim made me realized that i should be proud of what and who am i.. he made a blog that tells everything about third sex.. then he showed me how wonderful life is when youre not hiding anything. it really made me loosen up with the pressure and all that stuffs.

here's my fav line from his blog, actually its his header:

THEY LAUGH AT US BECAUSE WE ARE DIFFERENT, WE LAUGH AT THEM BECAUSE THEYRE ALL THE SAME.. WE KNOW WHO WE ARE, WE LEARNED TO LIVE AND LOVE, AND THUS, ONLY GOD WILL JUDGE US.

And now.. I can say that I AM REALLY PROUD OF WHAT I AM.. i am not ashamed for bein like this. i dont care what others say about me. love me or hate me for what i am.. i dont care. just as long as i know that i am not doing anything bad or anything that would hurt others ill continue living my life the way i want it to be.

BE PROUD.. THATS WHAT I ALWAYS KEEP IN MIND..