Thesis..

just got home from school.. just finished doin the final manuscript which is due tom.
first thing..
i went to school by 9 am for my classes til 12..
then made the other stuffs needed for the documentation til 945 pm..
damn.. i havent eaten the whole day.. then went out of school to find a computer shop to print tons of paper works.. then after that went to the nearest photocopy center to make a copy of the manuscript..which is 700 plus pages..
then arranged it manually one by one.. it was finished by 130 am.
i went home.. dont have any public transportation so i decided to walk from school going home..
now im here at home..
so tired.. so exhausted.
im goin to post some stuffs here maybe tom after school.
i still have classes in the morning.
shiet. i am so whacked up right now..
well it shows on how i blah on my blog now.
gnyt yall.
hope it'll all turn out well..
i do hope..
pray for me.
sigh.

Makes Me Want To Scream

Came home exhausted
Still thinking about you
Checked the inbox only
To find that there is nothing new
It’s like hoping for the sun to rise
In the midst of heavy rains
Yeah, we better have this analyzed
Before I turn insane
And all you ever do is understand
Your usual selfish side
How come it comes down to nothing?
When I’ve swallowed my own pride
Can’t see what’s the point
In being your slave for eternity
But I stand here waiting
Enduring the pain that’s killing me
Now, I’m sort of thinking
How about me leaving you?
You will cry, you will sigh and you
Is there anything you wouldn’t do?
Then you’ll buy my patience
How come I can’t turn you down?
I’m so confused, and so inflamed
I just can’t stand to see you frown
Sun has fallen from the sky
Stars no longer shining
Purple sky has turned gray
And it makes me want to
Scream
Moon no longer giving light
Us no longer talking
Rain would not shower love
And it makes me want to
Scream
I will stand here waiting
By the time the sun comes falling
I will be there for you
Can’t stand it
I’d be there for you....

Bleeding..

Forget About Me- Little Bit

You said, it wasn't gonna be like it was before.
Then it happened again.
Pushing me back out the door.
Thought it would be for real this time.
Love me forget about the signs.
So now what do i do?
Now that I know that we're through.

Refrain:
Wish that I could move on
Can't let go, it's too strong
Just like that and then you're gone
If this how you want it to be?
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery

Chorus:
Why don't you love me?
The way I'd loved you
It feels so crazy
'Coz I don't know what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
'Coz I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.

Too late, sorry.
I didn't have the chance
You said you were happy
Baby, I don't understand
Gave you everything you asked for
And was ready to give you a lot more
I would've given you the world
Right in the palm of your hand.

Refrain:
Wish that I could move on
Can't let go, it's too strong
Just like that and then you're gone
Was this how you want it to be?
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery

Chorus:
Why don't you love me?
The way I'd loved you
It feels so crazy
'Coz I don't know what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
'Coz I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.

Boy, my heart was true
And that you can't deny
Don't be a fool
And walk away from all the lies
It's up to you
'Coz heaven knows I've tried
Tell me you're still in love.

Chorus:
Why don't you love me?
The way I'd loved you
It feels so crazy
'Coz I don't know what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
'Coz I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.

Forget about me
I really love you.

Broken / Shattered Playlist

Current Songs that im listening to..

Over?

I watch the walls around me crumble
But it's not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts 'cause it will end
I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time
You're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel, the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
And I'll be the first to go
Yeah, I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I'm dreaming about you, honestly
Tell me that it's over
'Cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over
Honestly tell me

Don't tell me that it's over...

Excerpt from Over by Lindsay Lohan

Something I Never Had..

sigh. i dont know where to start this freakin post.
alright.. im done doin the documentation of my thesis proposal..
what for?
i dont know.
before i met tim i want to stop schooling.
coz im so sick of studying.
then i met him.
hes the reason why i am eager to graduate.
but now.. i dont know.
i need to focus but i cant.
where's my inspiration?
who am i doin this for?
yeah i know i need to do it for myself..
but he's the one who brought back faith in me.
now it's all gone..
i dont know
is it all gone?

Do you see me? Do you feel me like I feel you?
Call your number I cannot get through
You don't hear me and I don't understand
When I reach out, oh I don't find your hand

Where they wasted words and did they mean a thing?
And all that precious time but I still feel so in between

Some day I just keep pretending
That you'll stay, dreaming of a different ending
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had

Oh I keep tellin' myself things can turn around with time
And if I wait it out you could always change your mind
Like a fairy tale oh where it works out in the end
Can I close my eyes? Have you lying here again

Then I come back down and then I fade back in
And then I realize it's just what might have been

Some day I just keep pretending
That you'll stay, dreaming of a different ending
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had

Am I a shadow on your wall?
Am I anything at all? Anything to you
Am I a secret that you keep?
Do you dream me while your sleeping after all?

Some day I just keep pretending
That you'll stay, dreaming of a different ending
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had
That I never had

I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had

You don't see me
You don't feel me like I feel you

I've been busy

Well i havent posted anything for a long time. thats because ive been busy with school works.. (my thesis proposal in particular).. i havent called my bf that much in the past few weeks.. i thought he's mad but it turned out well.. it was his birthday yesterday.. he thought that i forgot his "day".. ofcourse i dint.. why will i? hhehehe.. belated happy birthday again my dubs.. well at last im already finished with the documentation of my thesis and im just waiting for the oral defense this march 8.. i do hope to pass.. after all the hard works.. damn.. ive shed blood and tears doin that fuckin thesis.. lol... and now its our midterm examination week.. damn... and i need to finish a project within this week.. its a website for my major subject and im doin it alone.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! well anyways ill keep you guys posted after this damn shits.. (as if theres a lot of people readin my blahs!) LOL!